Photo taken in Jerusalem

April 6, 2012…… I just received shocking news from a man who was soon to be my husband. Instead of calling me to talk about our future together, to tell me he loved me, he said, “It’s over.”

“What?” I asked, totally confused and slammed with the surprise news. It was uncanny, but I was strangely calm and in an odd way, relieved.

This news meant we had no future. I had no warning signs that I could think of. It was over. The wedding to take place in five weeks, was cancelled. A day later, I decided I needed to go someplace by myself to pray and ask for guidance. I came across this verse in the Old Testament from an ancient prophet:

I will stand my watch and set myself on the rampart, and watch to see what He will say to me.
Habakkuk 2:1

I looked up the word “rampart: “A defensive wall of a castle or walled city, having a broad top with a walkway and typically a stone parapet.

I knew I’d receive an answer “on the rampart”, but perhaps not right now. I closed my eyes and let the Holy Spirit speak to me…….

I thought back again to the prayer I had said three days earlier: “Oh God, I don’t have the strength to do it, but if this marriage is not in Your will, then You will have to end it.” I had asked God for an answer—and He had given it.
I now needed to begin the task of forgiving Ron. God was using two imperfect people to do His will in their lives. I begged God to help me move forward, away from the planned marriage, toward peace and His future for me.
Perhaps I would never be married again. In any case, I needed to submit my will to God’s. I set myself to the work of grief and forgiveness. I knew it would happen soon, even if I couldn’t feel it yet. I surrendered all my thoughts to God, and just before dawn, I fell asleep.
When I woke later that morning, I was at peace. I was sad but grateful for the holy intervention so evident in my prayer earlier that week. I knew it was God’s best for me—He had spoken to me through that prayer, said not by me but by the Holy Spirit living in me. Though I was hurt, I knew my heart would heal—if I allowed the Comforter to help.

Stand on the rampart. Watch to see what He will say to me…..

Excerpt from Beyond Second Chances: Heartbreak to Joy

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If I only knew the future, there would have been no sorrow, no gripping need to read my Bible and talk to God. Nearly five years ago, I was unaware of the future. I didn’t know how God would beautifully supply my needs. Just as today, the first week of December, 2016, I don’t know the future. I know the past. I know I can trust God to take care of my needs. The past tells me He has. The future is in His hands and I know I can trust Him for that, too.

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