Tuesday, July 3, 2012

I was talking to my son last night, telling him about the new paint job in my bedroom, bath and walk in closet. He asked me why I’d go to all that work. I told him it was a step in moving forward yet again.

I was planning to vacate the space that Blair and I shared together during that wonderful time we were married. I was to marry again and move away. There was no need to change anything here. Then, that changed. I didn’t marry. We cancelled our engagement. I missed Blair even more–again!

I needed to process things for a time, then decided it was time for a change. So I did it. A major paint job in my special corner of the house. My bedroom and bath! So, I thought and chose two lovely green shades to rest my eyes on when I want to rest or just contemplate things with my feet up. It is all I wanted and more! And I’m moving forward! A necessary step in my progress of grief–and just life in general.

It’s beautiful and I am content.